Love

After thinking about my own life and looking at others around me I have to say that I believe that you are not meant to end up with your first love. It seems like the relationship that you have with your first love is passionate and destructive at the same time. I think it turns you into a person that you don't really want to be. In my experience I was 15 when I met my first love, it lasted for four years and turned me into one of those crazy girls. It made my emotions physically affect my body at times. If we had ended up together for the long run I think I would have had mental difficulties and I never would have trusted him. After moving away from our home town I dated several people as I finished college and then finally met my husband to be when I was 23. I think everyone needs to date and experience life before they can settle down into a marriage. Now, there are some cases of people marrying their high school sweethearts and end up being happily together forever. As time goes by and society changes I believe marrying your high school sweetheart will become a thing of the past since most people will now attend college, travel, and experience life which will change who they are. Those are just my thoughts on the subject...hopefully it makes sense.

I am...

such a bad blogger!!! Trying to find balance in my first year teaching and being a wife is a challenge. I will have to work harder to get my thoughts out. Frequently I think of blog posts but rarely have the time to sit and let it all come out!

So today my husband is away, he will return on Thursday, but I still miss him. Sometimes I feel guilty for missing my husband because he is not on deployment and I will always see him in five days or less but I can't help it. When we were dating and he was deployed I got into the routine of having him gone. Yes there are lonely and unbearable parts but eventually it is over and you get to see your loved one again. Now, he is on shore duty but what that really means is that he is home for ten days and then gone for five and that is constant. It is hard to have him gone during the week when I am also used to him being home. Does that make any sense? Sometimes when I have a rough day at work all I want is to come home and get a hug which is great when he is here and not so great when he is gone. However, I am grateful that he is in my life because I love him so much.

Hopefully tomorrow I will post my theory on finding love....